What Is Going On?

Is it just me or am I getting negative vibes from pretty much everyone I know?   I’m usually really crapty at reading signals from people though so I dunno.

For instance… a friend I’ve been hanging out with more recently is either subconsciously giving out negative vibes or my vibe-antenna seems to be malfunctioning.   That’s   stressing me out to no end.   A better phrase is ‘it’s confusing me’.

I think highly of that person indeed, so I hope the situation sorts itself out soon.   I’m only too aware of how susceptible I am to the actions of people in my life, and I wish I could change that.   For now it’s not going to change though.

It feels weird to have a social life now, small as it is.   Kenora especially is a bad town for someone like me – I don’t drink alcohol and that’s all most people do, aside from smoking drugs.

I was considering taking a road trip west to visit some buddies, and now I’m not so sure.   I’m just not up for going on vacation for the first time in six years, and having trouble for me or anyone else around me.

I damned hate being back on a downer!

One positive note – I finally received in the post the first four series/seasons of Judge John Deed that I ordered from Amazon.co.uk.   Took about two weeks for the order to even be shipped, but once it was… it was about ten days to get to me.   I’m quite psyched.   Fucked up thing is that the DVD’s are Region 1, so I have to use DVDFab Platinum to burn them before I can watch them.   Kinda good in a way coz these aren’t readily available if one gets scratched or broken.

Tips about Blogging For Cash

I’ve been reading and browsing more than a few blogs lately of people giving out tips for blogging and earning money.

What’s irritating me about it all is that 99% of them are saying the same crap, and all of it is stuff that is common sense and nothing that any intelligent person wouldn’t know already.

Of course, I would dearly love to earn a wage through blogging and confess to being somewhat jealous of people like Darren Rowse (he’s not part of the crowd I’m referring to though).   Obviously his techniques work, but it’s more his readership that I’m referring to.   Darren will post a blog about a subject and then he’ll get numerous comments either kissing his ass, or posting exactly what he said but rephrasing it and trying to act like it’s something completely different to what he posted.   It irritates me to no end.   I’ve posted a few comments asking about it, but so far I’ve resisted the urge to shout ‘STOP KISSING HIS ASS’.

First Day At School

Today was a big milestone for Nicolas. He spent his first day at school. School started at 0845 and ended at 1520. His teacher is pretty nice. We sent him to Lakewood School instead of Mount Carmel because Mount Carmel’s a Catholic school. Students there are made to go to Mass, the teachers indoctrinate the students to believe that God and Jesus are the only real gods. In religious education there’s a complete concentration on Christianity and there’s no learning about other religions.

If my son grows up to become Christian then that’s his business, but I’m not going to have him unfairly influenced into Christianity like some of his cousins here already are. That’s the good side to Lakewood School… there’s no special religious biased. The down sides are the large majority of kids there are white (Nicolas’s class is evident of this). I’ve seen a lot of racism coming from very young children in this town and I’m afraid that Nicolas will experience it more in Lakewood School. Most of the native kids are getting sent to Mount Carmel. But at least Nicolas’s cousin Talia is in the same school and class, so at least they’ll have someone familiar there with them.

Packing Nicolas’s lunch was an ordeal… 3 sandwiches of bologna, 3 juice packs, 3 granola bars, an apple, banana, 1 fruit cup and 3 sugary snack packs. The locker space is meagre but he’ll have to learn to manage. I was more freaked out than Nicolas was… he just took it all in his stride.

Onto something else… today at work wasn’t good. I got very angry, and somewhat ‘hurt emotionally’ I guess is the correct phrase. The boss doesn’t appreciate my talents. I work extremely hard, and am ALWAYS willing to go that extra mile, always willing to do overtime, and always willing to go over and above.

I’ve been taking various photographs with my new Panasonic DMC-L27 camera. It’s got 7.2 megapixel resolution and a 1:2.8-4.5/6.1-36.6 Lumix lens. It takes very high quality photographs. The options are too numerous to count. Thought it was rather funny that it didn’t have an viewing hole though ha!

Asinine People

Admitting that I am prone to fault is hard for me to admit and it’s hard for me to admit that it’s hard for me to admit that. One of my faults is that I get rather angry at asinine people trying to display a level of maturity that is beyond them. I have no illusions about how mature or immature I am… I know what I am and don’t try to change it either way.

But when I get a teen whippersnapper trying to spread a lie about me, it does tend to get my goat. On another forum, a whole bunch of stuff has happened… based mainly around topics I talk about that this poxy little ‘in-crowd’ existing of about four people don’t seem to want to talk about. Some are annoying, some I respect even though I disagree with, but some just plainly make me wanna do something silly like throw this $500 monitor through the window.

I had to write this seperately as I needed a vent.

Gun Control

I just almost had an argument on MSN with my sister Marie. It came about when we were talking about guns. I told her I’m going to apply for a gun license on August 1st. Right away immediately she started getting negative and didn’t even want to talk about it. She said that friends of hers had been hurt, shot and murdered by guns. I found the fact that she wants a ban on guns a bit funny because we got into a heated argument the other day about her liking New York saying she could definitely live there. Like HELLO? America? Constitution? Right To Bear Arms? Trigger happy Yanks?

I told her that the firearm would be for hunting deer. I stated that it would be for food, and not for trophies but she still didn’t want to hear it.

I was trying to tell her that hunting is a traditional part of my son and daughter’s cultural heritage. It’s one of the few traditional things that Aboriginal people in Canada can do today. Am I supposed to just stop them practising their culture because of some assholes in metropolis cities all over the world who shoot people out of vengeance or for material gain?

What people don’t understand is that a gun is only dangerous when it’s in the hands of an irresponsible person. It’s the same as a butter knife… a letter opener… or a large dog. If you use it right they’re entirely safe.

What is needed is more background checks, reference checks, character interviews and less restrictions on the good people who need or want firearms for legitimate uses.

Hunting isn’t part of my culture, and it won’t ever be… but it is a part of my children’s. It bothers me that people will look down on me or think ill of me trying to help my children practise something their people have been doing for hundreds of years.

People who want a blanket ban on firearms are either ignorant of the facts or misinformed.

As most people who know me know I’m not a big fan of American culture in general and of the way Americans do most things so I’m not for anyone having a gun for whatever reason. Just the more sensible people having better access to firearms, and looneys not.