Different Stuff

Stuff is going as good as could be expected. I’m sitting here in the York Hotel in Winnipeg at the guest courtesy computer – it’s probably about minus fifty degrees with the windchill outside. COLD!

We went to get the amniotic fluid test on Friday, but the doctor said that the baby wasn’t ready to be delivered, so we have to wait until Tuesday probably. Baby had turned downward ready to be born, but for some strange reason turned back into the breach position.

A couple of days ago I offered to make a family website for one of my old friends, with no strings attached. She’d just had a very beautiful baby about a week ago, and I figured as do I, that most parents would love the chance to show off pictures of their children. She deleted her myspace.com profile right after that which made me wonder a little. Rhiannon – if you’re reading this, and it was because of me… I didn’t mean nothing by it, and I’m sorry if I freaked you out in any way. Wuz just trying to be nice.

I LOVE my job with a passion… website designing and developing is one place where I can create something that works and is of use to someone. But lately I’ve been getting extremely bummed out at work. I’m not really sure why either. It’s not affecting my work… but it is getting to me terribly.

Things are getting a WHOLE LOT better at home. Not really sure why but my lady’s freaking out far less… we’re not arguing anymore which is awesome. Hopefully this will last a long time

I might have a daughter in two days! Yippee hooray!

Endorphins

Three days ago after the woman went to play cards, I got a couple of my old Mp3 cd’s and cranked up the system.   Nicolas and myself danced solidly from 8pm to 12pm and it was the most fun I’d had in five years.   Nicolas was jumping up and down to each song that came on, with me copying him, and him playing the guitar with a plastic kids rake. His entire body from the waist up was bright red by the time the music had stopped.

I’d been on a bit of a downer again, so I figured I’d interact with Nicolas a little more than usual. It certainly worked because I was on a cloud for all of the next day.   Science says endorphins are supposed to make you happy…   dancing must release them because both my boy and I were having the time of our lives.   I used to think dancing was pointless, and to some degree it is… but if you’re feeling blue, don’t be a pig and go out and eat – go and dance with a child.   The glee in Nico’s smile was heartwarming.

Music’s got an extremely powerful effect on people – I know for sure with me.   It can bring out a whole range of emotions.   Some of the music I was playing made me wistfully   remember my youth, and made me wish I was 13 again.   I Think We’re Alone Now by Tiffany was one of them.   Chain Reaction by Diana Ross was another…   ahh the good old days.

Same ol’ shyt is still happening on the rez.   No better, no worse.   It’ll never change.   I did have a good insight from one of the teen girls on the reserve about hatred between the families.   It seems that a lot of young people think that certain families hate other families.   Sorry to break it to everyone, but it just isn’t like that.   Certain families just want to be left alone, without being talked about, or victimised in any way shape or form.     There’s no hatred or secret agenda to stick it to other families on the rez.   Hopefully one day Dalles will be a great place to live.

The Latest Stuff

I’m sure everyone knows that I now have my next car.   It’s a 2003 AWD Toyota Matrix.   It’s white, and is in immaculate condition with 47,000KM when I bought it.

For those who don’t know… All Wheel Drive means that the four-wheel drive is controlled automatically by the onboard computer – if the back wheels are spinning at a greater rate than the front wheels, the 4×4 kicks in automatically.   Jolly good eh?
I bought one of those cheap $16 car vacuum cleaners and use that everyday, and I wipe down the insides once a day.   This car WILL be kept in top shape no matter what it costs.   It MUST last me at least five years.   Bearing in mind the extensive research into car models and manufacturers, I’ve complete confidence that all Japanese brands are AWESOME… not like the other north american crap being sold to millions across the world.

Lorraine’s feeling more and more pregnant every day.   I’m scared of having another child for obvious reasons… nervous… and elated all at the same time.

My ultimate goal in the area of careers seems to be changing – the options I want are below.

• Extremely wealthy and anonymous
• Famous and wealthy
• Actor
• Police Officer
• Owner of design firm

I’m having serious internal conflict and issues about the fact that I am none of the above.   DAMN IT ALL!

On a great note… there’s a movie being shot in Kenora.   The production company are renting space in our office… the movie’s called ‘Juliana and the Medicine Fish‘, with Jessica Amlee, Rob Schneider, Gordon Tootoosis and Alex Rice.   I’ve been foozing Jessica and it’s just awesome.   I can officially add that I’ve foozed a movie star.   BTW – Jessy’s 12yrs old hahahaha!

Nicolas is getting scratched, bitten and pinched by one of his cousins which I’m not happy about at all.   If it doesn’t stop, a few words in the cousin’s mother’s ear will be happening for sure!

Work And Life

Work is going good… fortunately I’m in a job that I truly love. Web development… behind the scenes construction of web sites… additions, changes, deletions. I want to expand but it’s not my business so there’s no way. Going out on my own might be an option far in the future, but it’s not feasible now.

I had a major harddrive meltdown on Monday. The PC wouldn’t boot to Windows. I lost a day’s pay by staying at home on Tuesday which made me rather mad. Luckily we retrieved 20GB of data and so now we’re working off the external hard drive and the other internal hard drive that doesn’t have the operating system on.

Life with Nicolas is going great. He’s potty trained almost 100%. Every so often he’ll dump in his pants, but he’s got the whole thing down. Saving us a ton of money in diapers… lot more underpants washing though.

I want to move to Vancouver, but it’ll never happen because I have to be where my boy is, and Lorraine would never agree to taking him there. She’ll never move away from Kenora either.

I’m successfully keeping up the pumping iron regime at the recreation centre gymnasium. I’m going four times a week but after this weekend I’ll be going five days a week. My rest days will be Wednesday and Saturday. Eating five times a day is getting hard to keep with but it’s all worth it because I’ve already put on about 6lbs in weight. The weights I lift are getting heavier each time. You wouldn’t think that lifting two 5lb weights in front and side lateral raises is very hard but my personal trainer Darryl is teaching me the correct technique for everything… and lifting those two five pound weights hurts like hell after 4 sets of 15.

Getting into the fitness lifestyle is very hard to start with but a breeze once you’re into it. I find myself wanting to go to the gym every day, but of course the muscle rest time is needed.

I still hate a few certain people who live on this reserve. Hate is something hard for me to let go of (if ever) once I start. I don’t hate for petty reasons either.

Good thing is that England beat Trinidad & Tobago two nil in the World Cup. Beckham, Lampard, Gerrard and Rooney are the golden guys… I think we’re going to win it this time. I’m certain that if we do, I’m going to have to break my rule of no alcohol, get wasted and party for the whole damn weekend. If England wins the World Cup, I reckon it should be turned into a national holiday.

Crappy Canadian television is still running crappy sports like Ice Hockey, Basketball and Baseball when the World Cup is on. Isn’t it a bit ironic that Canada and the U.S’s major sports are all pirated from British games, or are British invented? Like hellooooooo get some originality… invent your own games!