Of late, I’ve been getting increasingly jealous of almost everyone I speak to, or read about. I’m jealous of the guys who started Myspace, I’m jealous of people who earn more than I do… and I’m DEFINITELY jealous of the two geeks who started YouTube. A 19month old website that’s made no real profit is now being bought for US$1.65billion.

That is absolutely ridiculous AND not fair. I deserve that money. All my thoughts lately are being consumed on what I don’t have. A lot of people are almost certainly going to tell me that I should be grateful for what I do have. I have a beautiful son, and another child on the way for which I’ll be eternally thankful… but that still doesn’t get past the fact that I want riches. If not millions, then at least enough to know all my bills will be paid each month. LIFE FUKKEN SUCKS!

A buddy of mine called me a pervert – at least I think they’re a buddy. At first I thought they were taking the piss but after a little bit I wasn’t so sure. It did bother me quite a bit. I’m not sure if it’s that I thought the person thought I was alright, or if I care too much about what people think of me. I’ve always thought that I didn’t care a whole great deal but maybe I was wrong about myself?

Recently found out it cost $8 for a braid of sweetgrass. Sweetgrass can be picked for free around Kenora so that’s horse crap.

One of the rez dogs that hangs around outside my house has had eight puppies. It’s not really my dog but being me, I feel responsible so now I have a load of homes to find, else a hefty veterinarian bill. One was stolen by one of the girls on the reserve. I know exactly who it was too.