Waiting for a Star To Fall

Waiting for a Star To Fall by Boy Meets Girl

Why Me?

I’m sure literally billions of people since the dawn of time have asked themselves that question.  It’s stupid that not good things happen to essentially good people.  I’m one of those essentially good people.  Note the operative word being ‘essentially‘.

Yesterday I blogged about the one friend I have here.  Not even two hours AFTER I posted that blog,  that friend asked me to give them room.  That didn’t feel good at all.  I don’t purposely try to hang out with one person all the time, but when you literally only have one friend, there’s not many choices of people to hang out with when you don’t want to be alone. I really ought to make an effort to acquire more friends.  The problem is I simply don’t have the will or motivation to do that.  It’s hard trying to pull motivation out of thin air.  Back in London, I had no problem acquiring  buddies… but here it’s a different story.

I’ll tell ya this though… I had an absolutely excellent evening.  Well almost excellent.  I sat at home on my carpet reading a book, whilst listening to Enigma, and then the soundtrack to ‘Last of the Mohicans’.  Tonight it’ll probably be Schindler’s List soundtrack playing.  Having no television really helps a person become less brainwashed.  I might even go as far as purposely not getting a satellite connection.  Have to see how that pans out.

I got rather angry yesterday – someone told a lie about me to someone else.  That really pissed me off to no end.  I’m hoping the person who the lie was told to didn’t believe it.

I have a lot of problems with people misunderstanding my intentions or why I do or say stuff.  I’ve always had that problem and it’s starting to affect my life.  It makes me sad for a person when they think a friend is trying to get something from them because they try to do nice things for them frequently.  That person can’t have had people being nice to them all the time, and it makes me sad for that person. Especially when they really are a stupendously excellent person.  Hopefully I can make up for that.

Billy No Mates

I feel like Billy.  Just as millions of others do across the globe.  I’ve literally one friend here in Canada.

Isn’t that just f**king sad? Problem is now I’ve an abundance of time on my hands so naturally when I’m bored I want to hang out with my mates.  As I only have one, it feels like I’m constantly crowding the one friend I do have.  I HATE THAT!  Like REALLY hate that.  Whether it’s fate or divine intervention… I am blessed to have the friend that I do have, and it’s just hard getting used to the fact that people have their own lives to handle.

Going through this major change in my life, which will dictate the way the rest of my life goes is extremely difficult.

I think I’m becoming more of the person I used to be before I came to Canada which is definitely a good thing.  I find myself wanting to do things for other people just for the hell of it, and to help people out.  Been doing a lot of that lately… stuff for people without hope or agenda.  It feels awesome to help relieve burdens from people.  Ones that don’t cost $$$$$$$$ I mean.

Vivo Por Ella / Vivo Per Lei

Vivo Por Ella by Andrea Bocelli ft. Martha Sanchez

This one is worthy of a blog post all by itself. Possibly one of the greatest songs ever written. Or at least in the top ten. The lyrics are below:

Vivo por ella sin saber
si la encontré o me ha encontrado,
Ya no recuerdo como fue
pero al final me ha conquistado
Vivo por ella que me da
toda mi fuerza de verdad,
Vivo por ella y no me pesa.

Vivo por ella yo también,
no te me pongas tan celoso,
Ella entre toda es la mas
dulce y caliente como un beso,
Ella a mi lado siempre esta
para apagar mi soledad,
Mas que por mi, por ella
yo vivo también.

Es la musa que te invita
a tocarla suavecita
En mi piano a veces triste
la muerte no existe
si ella esta aqui.

Vivo por ella que me da
todo el afecto que le sale,
A veces pega de verdad
pero es un pu±no que no duele,
Vivo por ella que me da
fuerza, valor y realidad
para sentirme un poco vivo.

Como duele cuando falta,
como brilla fuerte y alta,
Y ella canta en mi garganta
mis penas m¡s bellas y espanto.
Vivo por ella y nadie mas
puede vivir dentro de mi,
Ella me da la vida
la vivo, si esta junto a mi,
si esta junto a mi.

Desde un palco contra un muro,
en el trance mas oscuro
Cada dia una conquista,
la protagonista es ella también.

Yo vivo per lei

No words could do this song justice!

Happy Music

Been listening to a LOT of music lately. My life is changing tremendously and I have no cable / satellite television programming available at my house, so I’m left to reading books which I love and listening to music. Figured I’d post some Youtube music videos of music that has a tremendous effect on my moods and emotions.

Island in the Sun by Weezer

Volare by Gypsy Kings

Baila Me by Gypsy Kings

Djobi Djoba by Gypsy Kings

Si Tu Me Quieres by Gypsy Kings

I Just Called To Say I Love You by Stevie Wonder